nothing's gna make me change . period .
if you keep asking me to change, definitely, I wld be thinking whtvr I was thinking hours ago. & if you still ask me to stop thinking tt way, I cant . & I wont .
if you think Im just being too emotional, think again . as Ive said, not even a single soul truly understands me. if I say, including you, probably true . dont get me wrong . seriously . Ive had it . but not w you I mean . today, just now . Yes, Im being very pathetic & unreasonable . you thought tt way ? Im sure you do . but to me, heck care .
Im being who I am, maybe . but idk .. whnvr I behaved tt way, you say Im giving you attitude . but above all tt, do you really knw my feelings inside out ? Im not blaming you for not really understanding me . but how I wish you reallyreally cld . even if I say sorry for a thousand times, wldnt make any diff right ?
Now Im telling you why I behaved tt way .
Firstly, Im feeling very depressed . I felt like noone bothered about me . esp y'know, maybe friends . & I think e reason was tt, Ive ignored them too much I guess .
put tt aside now .
& YES, I AM POSTING ABOUT YOU . okey ?
great.
Secondly, I just dnt knw why . I felt like Im under a lotlotlot of pressure . Im thinking about too many things . but I cant figure out what it is .
Thirdly, YES . I felt like Im being made a fool . yes, FOOL .
BIG blardy FOOL . okey ? by who ? idk .. Sigh.
Well, no matter wht, I still love you. Im sorry.
stop thinking shits ):
Im awfully sorry cos most of my posts is mainly just abt us .
cos as you see, Im quite a loner already huh ? Ive no much commitment w others .
so yeah, fuck .
& Ohh, Happy birthday to Rhoma today . & Abg Asif for tmr.
=]
people loves to see me suffer . to think e worst of me . Wht else cld I probably say ? Just a BIG EXTRA MEGA THANKS . I had it .
