I've been searching for pictures to upload . But i can find none .
Supposed to go east coast together w Athirah & e rest, to .. y'know ~ see our husband in action ( lol ) . I mean, eh Taufik lh ! Urgh .
so suddenly when I woke up today . I had this nk tnak nye feeling . I wanted to go actually . but something just pulled me back . Uh ? apape uh . anyway, then .. I thought of meeting my friends . anybody lh kn as long as I cld go out . & yes ah thanks, I'm not allowed to .
Eeek . sumpah aku ckp, I'm not satisfied . no idea why . So I decided to just stay at home . Yeah, noone's in . Am alone, will be alone . Kakak's siap-ing for work . & i dont think theres anything for me to eat . Sorry uh cuzzie, I just dont feel like going suddenly . & Sorry aunt for not answering your calls . so Sorry ):
there's a $10 note on e table . idk utk sape .
I really aint got any mood now . Bleeeaaaahh ! some things just has to happened . & its very, very stressing me out . I feel scared somehow or rather . I wldnt want this matter to prolong . I tell you, if it does, I will get no much freedom at all . this matter, is really Umm . how shld i say it ? Crucial ? idk . it really concerns ME . as in, uh pape uh kn . really hard for me to say it here .
so anyway, I think, I've spent much quality time w family alrd . so obviously I want some time for myself . But oh well, I just cant . babi uh . if not for this matter, I wldnt be at home feeling all fucked up right now .
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to think again . I myself dont understand / dont know why / how come , I cld get myself into this kind of trouble . I shld have avoid it long ago . But still, i chose to stay w it . When I know, I'm someone who has difficulties in telling people off when I shld . to like, fight for my own will gituu . I still choose to stay weak & just go w e flow . Ehhhh, i really blame myself for this
& to who it may concern,
I'm like, Really Sorry . for avoiding, leaving you just like that . but certain things has happened, & I think I shld get away from you . before anything worse cld happen . idk if you're serious bout us . But, in my own thinking . I find everything wrong . Now then i cld realise everything . If you were really serious bout us then, Im truly really sorry . but again if you are, you wldnt be doing or saying things which are not that nice to do so . now then I cld really think further and deeper . I think what I'm doing is right . are you just playing a fool out of me [?] if you are, then you're a real bastard . if you dont, I seek an apology from you . sometimes, I think, whenever we fought or having problems, you'll say things which will make me feel sorry for you . dont you think so ? that is why i just go w e flow & i really cldnt think of anything at that point of time, but just to go on w you on everything . & act as if nothing bad or what has happened . I blame myself for being too soft-hearted & weak . for e time being or I guess forever, its best for us to be like this . I can move on w my life . & you too . Yeah, you're left w just how many days more . Takecare of yourself . lets treat it like, I have never know you & you have never know me too . Alright, I'm really sorry . If you think imma bastard, have other guys ? think twice .Oh & eeyah, super much thanks for everything you've done for me . Idk if you did those because you really love me, or for some other matter . Sorry once again .
Alright, I'm done . currently very pissed off w dont know what . Urgggh .
BONDYBONDY 11:49 AM
❙Sofia Bond
That's just a nick . Khairun Sofia it is .
I may not be a loud or friendly person, but do getta know me well first before you judge me .
Im nice okey ? Haha . I love my family, I love Fiqqy♡. Thankyou ☺